Today in class, we went trough all the four characters each had wrote a paragraph on describing them as people. After a vote, everyone was assigned one of these characters to further work on. For me, the person chosen was number three, also known as the deep and meaningful.
"This person is someone who is friends with a lot of people, or so people say. If you mention her name, ten people in the room will turn their heads around and know who you are talking about. Yes, people seem to know of her, but no one actually seems to know her. She is a quiet person, doesn't talk much, but always has a calm smile on her face. She will listen to you, but expect her to small talk. Every time she opens her mouth it is something deep and meaningful what she says, and her words will make you think. Think about sad and wonderful things, about the universe and nothingness, and you both hate and love her for that. You know that people have talked about dark things to her, told her secrets, but you still pour your heart out to her and you hope to get something back from her, but no. She never tells about her life, her first kiss, her first tears or even what she did last summer. You don't know her, but you stick with her, because you just know that someday she will want to open her heart, and you want someone to be there for her."
The most difficult thing about this person, is that you think you know her. You can tell all the times you have gone to a party and seen her there, sitting in a corner with couple of people listening to her talk about the universe and how our generation is going to make a difference. She seems to truly believe in it, knowing that all of us has a part in making it happen. For her, making a change isn't necessarily recycling or putting on riots to get the government listen. No, her approach to the issue is to do it by art and realizing that our inner selves deserve to be expressed. But what is the issue? You are not quite sure, since she focuses more talking about the universe and other subjects that only make sense at 2 am after a long night of laughter and deep thoughts, than herself and her beliefs, but you just know it is something big. You know that that big curly mess of a hair has big thoughts, ideas and secrets inside of it. It somehow seems that she has so many things in her head, real things about life and love and loss, but the only thing she wants us to see of her is this out of this world being without having any real life issues herself.
Why does she keep so quiet about herself, if people are obviously interested? She sees so much beauty in others, their lives and personalities seem so magical to her, but when it comes to question, what is interesting about her, she cannot say. Maybe that is it. Maybe a lack of confidence and perhaps her lack of self-worth prevents her from opening up and talking about her experiences and her own life. After a while, you start noticing, that you know nothing about her past, what she did before you two met. What is her family like? Has she ever lived anywhere else than the small town in Montana? Does she have any pets? Allergies? You want to go and ask her, but after looking into those deep eyes, you notice a glimpse of sadness under that calm smile and you just know that after she is finished with her story, you want to unhear it.
So you never ask.
But perhaps knowing her doesn't need to go deeper than knowing her favourite colour, which is deep red, like the colour of her stained lips. Her wardrobe consists of endless amounts of dresses, that somehow look homemade, but still fit her relaxed style perfectly. Every day she meets you with the sound of her black boots hitting the ground with a calm, but still cheerful rhythm. Her hair, as before stated, is blonde and curly. She used to have it down to her lower back, but had then cut it to a shorter length, revealing her pierced ears. Her favourite accessory is her beloved black pen, which she surprisingly almost never uses to write in a notebook. Instead, her arms are filled with scribbles and notes from that day, sometimes even asking others to join in on the fun. If you are ever in a class with her, she will fold you small origami swans when ever she is bored(which is most of the time). It looks impressive, but actually that is the only kind of origami she knows how to do. So yes, maybe you don't know her deepest darkest secrets and maybe you will never be able to label her as one of your bestest friends because of that, but she sure will make you smile when you are feeling down.
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